A Kick in the Rear
“You need to be a children’s book illustrator…Why is this not your reality?!?!” Read the text message that randomly popped up on my phone last night around 7:00 pm from my dear friend Lorelei. I immediately laughed because I was almost certain what was going to follow in the next few text messages, “Do it!!!!!! Just freaking do it, woman!” Thus, began my lecture on how I need to get my arse in gear and how she is going to kick it for not pursuing my secret dream to be a digital illustrator.
Lorelei, who is an amazing web designer, is one of the few people I allow to see my works in progress or completed works that I have never released. She has had my dragon, above, on her cell phone as a wallpaper for months but I just haven’t had the time to release it. “Stop being your own worst enemy, even Dean says so!” Another one of her messages shouted at me as my phone continued to ding. And truthfully, I know she is right because I am my own worst enemy.
I knew it was fruitless to lay out my current plans and excuses, but I did anyway while texting her last night, however, digital art has been on my mind. Especially with the colder months, my favorite time of year, finally upon us I have been working especially hard to finish up all my projects from the wedding season, so I can get back to art.
I have all my images complete for the year as of yesterday and only one major project left and that is a wedding video. I have started on it, but my goal is to wrap it up within the next week, so I can really delve into drawing, painting, illustrating and the dreaded, yet necessary, rebuilding of my website. As of now, my site mainly focuses on my photography, but I need to begin work on the structure to create a space for my art. This first year in business on my own has had its challenges and surprises but its time to settle down, create new goals, and mature in thought and process in what I want.
I enjoy photographing weddings, don’t take that wrong, but I cannot place myself into a box and stagnate. I am still growing and learning about what abilities I have. I never dreamed that this year would also have me designing logos that are now on trucks in Georgia or being used in other businesses across the US. I have also been a ghostwriter for some company blogs and other various tasks. Overall, I have learned that I am talented enough to make money on my own.
But I will also admit that I veered off course several times doing things I really did not need to get into. For example, at one point I was going to sew and another I was going to write a book. Right now, I am shaking my head because I know my faults and as Lorelei said I am my own worst enemy. If I continue to spread myself thin like that, I will never accomplish anything.
Therefore, taking Lorelei’s advice, “STOP…you live once…get your arse in gear!” I am eagerly taking strides to learn more about digital art and traditional sketching.
An Unexpected Gift
As a matter of fact, it is because of one of my weddings that I have some new material to study. Tammy & Phil Theoret graciously gifted me these two volumes of human anatomy and anatomy in motion via a card in the mail with an Amazon gift card. Their gratitude and gift surprised and touched me in a way that I cannot express. I’m excited to get back to art this winter and I do look forward to showing the works I have hoarded up over the summer.
I managed to find a little bit of time here and there to draw and paint some in short lulls before weddings snatched me away again. I look forward to showing them to you! And unlike my promises, I did not fulfill over the past year and a half these will be completed. I’m clearing my mind and goals of distractions that threaten to pull me away.
I have a million and one ideas in my head I need to get out as art from things I read and so forth. I am settling and finding my groove. Writing for other people has also helped me to get back into the habit so I do not have any more excuses. So, let’s imaginarily hold up our flutes of champagne and toast to the gratitude of our lives and gifts and move forward, shall we? Digital illustration and art I have missed you so much since last winter and I looking forward to your welcoming and creative embrace starting today!
Remember to Dare to Dream and take the steps to achieve those dreams!
Sabrina is an up and coming Digital Artist and Illustrator located in Western North Carolina. She is also an accomplished Wedding Photographer near Asheville.