I have been doing a lot of cleanups lately in a lot of areas in my life. “Spring Fever” has certainly put me in the mood to wipe the slate clean on nearly everything. The past couple of weeks, I have been cleaning my home from top to bottom, cleaning up and organizing my computer drives, and creating a more productive workspace for myself. Typically I would have done this at the beginning of the year, a week or two after Christmas. However, I was sick for a few weeks with an ear infection, and my husband JJ was recovering from surgery on his left arm. The year’s start has been a bit of a mess, but I know I am not the only one dealing with issues like these and COVID-19. COVID has inevitably slowed the start of the wedding photography season for me as well.
Now I will be the first to tell you I cannot blame it all on COVID because my husband and I both had health issues that affected my work habits. It may sound strange to you, my dear readers, but I feel like I am just now emerging into the New Year. This past year has had me feeling all kinds of topsy-turvy, and as a creative, I hate it.
To me, chaos breeds more chaos, and then I get stuck in a funk. That may sound a bit straightforward, but I cannot think of a better way to explain it. So, since the weather started turning, I decided to do something about my mood, and I went overnight to stay with a friend last week. It was only a 24-hour trip, but it shook up my psyche enough to get me inspired again. Soon I will show you what I was up to, but I am not ready yet.
I did have a mood-boosting shoot at the end of January, right before I started feeling ill, and those images I am ready to show off! In fact, you may have already seen some of those images on my post about Valentine’s Day this year. Those images will be coming up very soon in a new post, but I will give you a hint; I worked with a designer and a fantastic hair and makeup artist team.
I suppose I have been rambling about all of this to say that I want to get back to actively shooting again like a madwoman. The winter has been challenging, and 2020 has been difficult enough without my husband having to have surgery, but I miss the buzz of creating.
Photographing weddings, elopements, and people, in general, is a thrill for me. When I leave an event or photoshoot, I come home utterly exhausted because I give it all the passion within me. Nevertheless, while my body might be tired when I stretch out at home, there is a pleasant hum in my mind that brings me joy. I receive my next jolt of happiness when I deliver a client’s images and hear their feedback too.
I had high hopes for the New Year when it rolled around, and I was disappointed. It struck me dumb when I went into my drives to pull images from last spring to pair with this post and realized I barely picked up my camera until fall arrived near October! To say it was disheartening is an understatement.
I did, however, rediscover the fun shoot I styled for myself at the end of last September that is featured in this blog post. Special thank you to Madison Garris for modeling for me!
Despite it all, it’s time to get back to creating, and although it has been a bit slower than I want, I can’t give up. Creativity is what drives me to keep doing what I do! If I don’t create, I get depressed, and nothing brings on depression quite like chaos.
There is comfort in knowing that the entire world will have to rebound from the turmoil COVID-19 inserted into our lives. I am not alone, and neither are you!
I will leave you with this quote from Arthur Ashe, “Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.” I have to rebuild parts of my business that have fallen to the wayside even though they were not directly related to the virus. Still, I am starting where I am and using what I have.
Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.Arthur Ashe
I look forward to seeing all of you soon, dear friends, because I miss you!